bravingly:

Behind every filtered photo of shoulder bones like angel wings, behind “strength” in skipped meals and nine-mile runs and nights spent fingers glued to the fridge handle knees to the bathroom floor, behind every piece of food hidden in pants pockets or stuffed down the shower drain, every nonfat low-carb “I will fight but maybe when it’s easier tomorrow,” there is a soul born to expand that you are shrinking, slowly.

Behind the growing swell of your growling stomach, there is a hell of a lot of tear-filled pain, but there is a hell of a lot more hope in healing.

Pick up the fork and fight or stab yourself and surrender, but know that behind every non-action there is an only-intensifying reaction.

This is your choice.

Make the right one.

Obsessive food rituals
It is hard to communicate obsession – severe, clinical obsession, a true monopoly of thought. Here is the best description I have. Consider a computer, and the various windows and separate operations that the machine can run concurrently. As I write this, there is another window open in the background that updates my email, and a separate web browser that tracks football scores. When I choose, I can toggle between these windows, make them bigger or smaller, open and close others as I see fit. That is how the mind usually handles thoughts. It shares conscious concentration between tasks, while the subconscious changes the content of each window, or draws our attention among them. Obsession is a large window that cannot be made to shrink, move or close. Even when other tasks come to the front of the mind, the obsession window is there in the background. It acts as a constant drag on the battery and degrades the performance of other tasks. You can’t turn the machine off and on. Whenever you are awake, the window is there. And when you do manage to turn your attention elsewhere, you are aware of doing so. Soon enough, the obsession will reclaim the focus.

tonistarkofwinterfell:

LIFE HACK IF SOMEONE IS REALLY EXCITED ABOUT SOMETHING TRY TO BE EXCITED FOR THEM OR AT LEAST PRETEND TO BE AT LEAST SLIGHTLY INTERESTED BECAUSE NOTHING FEELS WORSE THAN EXPRESSING SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY ONLY TO HAVE PEOPLE TELL YOU TO CALM DOWN OR IGNORE YOU COMPLETELY

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